My name is Padmashree Ghangale and I was born and bred in Bombay.
I am second of the three children my parents have(Mama, a homemaker and Papa, a journalist/professor/political member).
My parents divorced due to irreconcilable differences when I was 4 (Sister, 13 and Brother, half a year old).
I had a regular childhood, (whatever is regular to you) and turned out a regular person (refer to the definition again).
I lost my Papa when I was 13 and regretted this episode since I was waiting to speak with my father about my existence.
My father’s death harassed me in two ways:
- I can never ask him about the circumstances that led him to abandon me.
- The inevitability of Death.
I realised that I have no power over my first situation. But the second situation I hadn’t even fully grasped.
I referred to many books and what I found in them helped me realise that fearing death is fruitless, learning to live is the true challenge of life.
So I began my journey in a brand new direction. Through it, I also discovered that I can prevent my father’s error in my own life by writing my experiences in a Diary, lest I suffer the same fate of early death as he.
A few years ago, I revisited my own handwriting and observed behaviour patterns that I later learned were defence mechanisms. I became my own psychologist and understood the validity of these definitions in my own life.
Newly enlightened, I set about changing the patterns that had defined me and realised the potential of mindful living.
I share my Diary with those who wish to peek at it.